Saturday, July 22, 2006

Surviving!

Well, this is Day 2 of on-call and so far, I'm making it through. Yes, there have been calls, and yes it has taken me awhile to fill some shifts, but overall it has not been as bad as I expected. I think it's what my coworkers would call a "good" on-call weekend. There are still 2 days to go, so hopefully I am not jinxing myself!

This is something I have never written about in my blog before, but three years ago in August, a dear friend of mine from high school was brutally murdered when she went for a bike ride on one of the city bike paths. She was missing for a few days before her body was found and me and some other friends took part in the volunteer search for her. As time passed, I knew it would be bad news, but I just kept hoping. I will never forget the day I heard on the news that they had found her. It was one of the most awful days of my life. They have a suspect in custody (thank God!) who was picked up last year and during the preliminary hearing, he apparently chuckled and grunted as my friend's family watched on. The trial continues on this year.

The reason I'm bringing this up now is that the other night, I had a dream that I was playing cards with some friends, and all of a sudden, there she was playing cards with us. I gave her the biggest hug and told her how scared I had been and how happy I was that she was alive. She just reassured me that everything was OK. And that's the last I remember of that dream. Three years ago after everything that happened, I went to her parents' place one morning to drop off a card with a mass offering in it to let them know how sorry I was. My friend always loved cats and she had one named Blue that looked like a part persian and it had the most beautiful blue eyes. That morning that I dropped off the card, I turned around to head back to my car and there was that beautiful cat staring me in the eyes. This may sound weird, but it was like my friend's spirit was there again, like the dream, telling me that everything was OK. I just looked at the cat for a moment but didn't want to pet it for some reason. And then I cried all the way home. Maybe I was looking for messages where there were none, but sometimes I wonder if these types of things are more than just coincidence. I still get a lump in my throat when I think of everything that happened.

Sorry this is so heavy. I must be thinking about this more because the 3 year anniversary is almost here. This was hard for me to write about, so thanks for taking the time to read.

10 Comments:

At 7:47 PM, Blogger FV Tom said...

Julie, I'm so sorry to hear of this and I got goosebumps just reading it. I believe like you do that your friend was letting you know that she is in a much better place.

prayers and hugs for you and her family.

 
At 9:29 PM, Blogger Amy said...

I am so sorry to hear about your friend. And I do think you can have some signs. how nice to be able to see her in your dream.

hugs.

 
At 9:38 PM, Blogger chantal2bfit said...

So sorry to hear about your friend. I was speechless for a moment there after reading her story. I also believe in signs and that your friend is letting you know that she is OK.

Big hugs! Praying for you and her family!

 
At 8:14 AM, Blogger Thisisit! said...

BIIIIIIGGGGG Hug. There really aren't words, are there?

 
At 12:35 PM, Blogger Chérie said...

Julie, I don't believe there are coincidences, I choose to think that you were given these things to comfort, heal and encourage you. While this is a truly tragic experience, there is much beauty in your deam and what you felt when you saw the cat.

I really felt the emotion in what you wrote. Thanks for sharing with us.

Love to you :)

 
At 1:53 PM, Blogger Kristina Michaud-Wilson said...

OMG Julie, I knew that you knew her, but I didn't realize you were so close. I'm so sorry.
I think I know how you feel, though, because M. has been gone for 11 years and I still dream about him. The first dream I had after he died, he walked into my bedroom and gave me a big hug while I was sitting up in bed, and that's how I knew that he is okay where he is.
I firmly believe that our dreams about our lost loved ones are actual messages from them (or from God) telling us they are okay.
A. is okay, too, and the bugger is going to fry for it, and for all the other assaults they've pinned on him.
Thank you for sharing with us.
*HUGS*

 
At 4:52 PM, Blogger Teresa Miranda said...

I have had similar dream about a very good friend who passed away when I was 15. Same type of dream and the hug and also them reassuring me that they were ok. I remember after that dream going to sleep every night for a long time hoping for another visit from him.

I am sorry for your pain, I do believe that it is def. them letting you know they are ok and to try and ease your pain. Bug Hug!

 
At 8:53 AM, Blogger Melissa said...

Oh my goodness Julie, I am so sorry. There really aren't any words I can offer since I have never been where you are. The dreams and the instance with her cat always make me wonder about "spirits". I've heard a lot of stories from people that just make me so curious about these things. One of my good friends says she thinks her grandmother comes to her in her dreams...she always dreams about her on Wed nights (there was something very special between them on Wednesdays when she was alive).
I'm sure your friend is watching over you and wanting you to know that she's ok and not to be sad. Like Tom said...giving me goosebumps. (((HUGS)))

 
At 10:37 AM, Anonymous Kitty said...

Hi, Julie!
I've never commented on a blog before; but after reading what you wrote, I just had to say something. Thank you for writng that, I know it's going to touch a lot of people who read it, as it did me. I know it was hard for you to write; but you did it very well!

I'm always here for you. You're my best friend and I love you! God Bless!

 
At 1:44 PM, Blogger Lori said...

Wow, I would think the same thing with a cat. I think things like that happen. Sorry to hear about your friend.

Lori

 

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